After a few trips around the sun, you start to realize that things are not as you were told. You look in the mirror one morning and realize that everything put in your head for the past 54 years was, well questionable. Not wrong, questionable.
There was a point in my life when things weren't right. To the outside I had it all, on the inside I had nothing. I was shell of the person I was, I was empty, looking for a truth outside myself. Then one day, after every self help book I could possibly get my hands on, it happened, it happened.
What happened? I realized it was all me, internal, demons and angels playing tag in my heart. I had given up what was me for something that appeared to be easy. I had settled. I had followed the easy not the passionate, I had absorbed the negative instead of fighting for the positive. This revelation was overwhelming.
From that point, ten years ago now, I have rebuilt my life and myself. I had tea with the demons, we are all on good terms, I accepted the help from my angels, and part of that was merely recognizing my blessings. You see when you find yourself in the middle of the swamp on this little island called "comfort zone" it is a challenge to leave it and swim to the other side. Not that it is far or hazardous, no it is scary. Fear is what holds us back. It keeps us from exploring our options. Make no mistake I am not saying that you need to take wild risks, but maybe calculated ones.
Just yesterday, in opening my heart and mind to, for a lack of a better term, the universe, and you know what I found, opportunity. Now you may ask "how"? Well, let me share a little secret, opportunity is sort of like a scavenger hunt or that game we played as kids, you know red car, green car, you have to look for it and the recognize it when you see it.
Opportunity comes in all shapes sizes, colors and feelings. It is the bright shiny diamond, and the pile of horse shit in the barn. You can find it in a loss or a win, or both, it lives in the little things, putting the dots together until you see the big picture. You see that is the part so many people miss, it isn't always a single huge, earth moving, jaw dropping revelation. Most of the times it is a series of bread crumbs you follow to another set of bread crumbs that take you to your path.
The other HUGE component is having a purpose, having a plan, an idea of the end game. An arrow unaimed will rarely hit its target. You have to have a target, believe it, live it, work each day towards it, and you will find when you add it keeping your heart open, POW things start to happen.
I feel I am at a place I need to share, not for others, for myself. Part of my purpose. I see our world right now, and all I can think is we need each other to survive all the trials and tribulations. To bring our nation back together. To cure the social disparity and unrest. Not by giving handouts, but giving a hand up, advice, support and love. To help other be a better version of themselves, not hide their personal issues with a check and prescription.
Until tomorrow friends, look for the good you will find it, it might be covered in horse shit, but you know what it is there.